little miss funeral

It almost doesn’t feel real. I suppose that’s the best way to describe it. One year without my baby.

How do you find the words?

One year ago today I experienced the physical pain of my heart breaking when Bandit died. If I close my eyes I can still feel him in my arms and my mom’s hands on his face as we told him we loved him. I can still feel the weight of his body as he took his last breath and went limp in my arms. I can still see my father crying as we sat in the vet’s office saying goodbye to the most loving member of our family.

It still sucks.

But the days following March 31, 2014 have also brought peace. Bandit taught me about unconditional love. He was a blessing to my life and helped to shape me into the person that I am today. He is my soul animal.

So to mark the one year anniversary of his death I decided to send him a card. I love you always Bandy Boy. I’ll see you on the bridge.