Things I think about at 10:03 PM on a Sunday.

A profession or a calling?

I was doing laundry when all of a sudden this question popped into my mind.

I am a funeral director, and often I hear that this is not a job, but a lifestyle, since I don’t typically work the average 9-5 (and by typically, I mean never) but is what I do day to day, a calling?

A strong urge toward a particular way of life or career; a vocation. When I google the definition of calling, that’s what comes up.

A strong feeling of suitability for a particular career or occupation.¬†When I google the definition of vocation, that’s what comes up.

But I’m not sure. I love what I do and I’ve wanted to be a funeral director since I was very young, but when I think back to what drove me into this field, I don’t think of a calling per say, I think of my grandfather. I think of his death and funeral. I think of wanting to help people. And I think of how I’d feel if I just walked away from it all.

I don’t know if what I do can be defined as more than just a job. But I know that what I do is definitely stamped upon my heart.